It's a DuBarr Thing

  I suppose it's not an exciting email. We are on my mind. All the situations and the emotions I've been left to have. It's got me thinking that our love isn't the same. In reality, I see us trying another time or two though it occurs to me that my love has been completely unconditional. Still, it's been apparent all along that for you to love me there have been conditions. It's just been brought to my attention recently and I was told to sit and think back to the beginning. I see myself putting my all into someone who was dealing in numbers and I don't even know what mine was. You accomplished what you wanted.. part of me feels like you only came to me when you had no place else to go. I have been the last resort. 'what you say is only in persuasion and if I have what you need it only stauls you from leaving, it never once has stopped you.. that's not love. Not real love anyway. Real love is unconditional like the love that exists in me, f...

Father - Mother God Loving me, - Guard me when I sleep Guide my little feet Up to thee. ~Mary Baker Eddy~ As a child, my mom used to say this little prayer with me every night.  

  Today I'd like to give thanks to all of my readers.  We may not interact but I can feel the energy.  Any day now one of my platforms is going to take off.  I've been working on them both for quite some time and whether I make it around the world or not I just enjoy it in my free time.  

About 5 years ago I met this guy that I wasn't attracted to nor was I even curious about him. It only took about a year for me to realize that I really liked him a lot.  I wanted to hang out and talk to him more but unfortunately, he got locked up.  Since we have been officially dating he has spent most of this time in jail.  I know what people are thinking and can't live worrying about what anyone else has to say.  The hurt and betrayal I've felt have certain people asking me questions as to why I would stay with someone who betrays and hurts me the way he does. The answer to that is, I haven't come across anyone that makes me feel the way he makes me feel.  He messes up a lot and has given me a dozen times to leave him and I just can't. So during his first bid, I was overwhelmed writing letters.  I started using blank note cards.  Then I found a way to design my own.  They are so worth it.  Glossy covered, centered photo, 5 different design...