Unconditional love: sent to him

  I suppose it's not an exciting email. We are on my mind. All the situations and the emotions I've been left to have. It's got me thinking that our love isn't the same. In reality, I see us trying another time or two though it occurs to me that my love has been completely unconditional. Still, it's been apparent all along that for you to love me there have been conditions. It's just been brought to my attention recently and I was told to sit and think back to the beginning. I see myself putting my all into someone who was dealing in numbers and I don't even know what mine was. You accomplished what you wanted.. part of me feels like you only came to me when you had no place else to go. I have been the last resort. 'what you say is only in persuasion and if I have what you need it only stauls you from leaving, it never once has stopped you.. that's not love. Not real love anyway. Real love is unconditional like the love that exists in me, for you. You have given me a million reasons and chances to literally fuck off and I still can't explain any of it. I don't feel any sort of tickle, suction, goosebumps, or complete fulfillment of the soul with anyone else. No one. Not one other person. It's not that I've really tried since the whole Larry thing. That situation only made me want you more. I just fear what will happen to us because you're you and I am me. It's fine if you want to run, if you want to be promiscuous, and party with a better crowd. I'm not shunning you. There's nothing wrong with what you want for yourself I just know what it all entails. I know I'm not going to be able to handle you hurting me like that again. It's not love and you're lying to yourself when you say it is. Unconditional love is effortless, it's passionate, and yearning. Unconditional love doesn't have a rhyme or a reason it just is. It is because unconditional love is the goosebumps and the sensations. It's the need to be with each other. When you really love and cherish someone you never feel the need to be with anyone else, for any reason.